These first few weeks back on the program have been tough for me. I’ve been dealing with a new medication, a seriously uncomfortable “make you dizzy and hot flashy” kind of cold and all kinds of potential mood alterations with the time change and lack of daylight. I doubt I have lost any weight this week but I have been focused and tuned in to how I am treating myself… telling myself “no” when I reach for a food I’m not actually hungry for… cooking dinner at home instead of eating out… my exercise has called a bit off the radar, but if I judge myself then I will give up. Judgement is NOT your friend in weight loss. It’s one thing to be aware and evaluate your behaviors… For example: I definitely at an entire chicken sandwich from a favorite take out this week when I was not the least bit hungry… that said, it tasted really good and I enjoyed the time with my husband and daughter at the table. Next time maybe I should opt for a game or something that will give me the same family time without the calories. No judgement. It’s hard to do though. One bite of delicious chocolate brownie and all the sudden you’re a horrible person… and since you’re a horrible person you’d better get in all the brownies while you can!! At least, that’s what *I* would do…
But this time around I’m doing my best to focus on the long haul. If it’s not something that I am willing to do for the rest of my life then it’s not something I can maintain. I need exercises that make me feel alive. I need foods that are healthy, filling, and delicious. I need to keep my chin up even when I disappoint myself. I am human. I will disappoint myself. If I’m repeating myself here from some previous posts then good!! I need to be reminded each and every second of every day – it’s about endurance. One foot in front of the other regardless of that those feet weigh.
